I know it’s after December, 25th, but it’s never too late for a Merry Christmas. In my own way I celebrate the Birth and coming of Jesus everyday. Lately it’s been harder. I struggle to pull myself out of the earthly things. The bills, debts and heart ache have taken a toll on me. As I fight for a refund on my heart ache and push through to the Joy, I am reminded that God is in me. He is always in me and with me, no matter what I am doing. Even sitting here i am reminded that when I watch something I shouldn’t, my Guardian Angel turns away or covers their eyes to not see what I am watching.
Lately I have been watching a TV series that I probably shouldn’t… Sons of Anarchy. While I sat there and began to find pleasure in the series I realized that the series was really just making me forget about my pain. But then, I was finding pleasure in a show the Lord would not be pleased with. I struggle to keep my life pleasing to the Lord. I know the Spirit of Error wants me to not be productive in the Lord’s ways. I know that they want me immobilized in the ways of the Lord. But I fight against. I know that with every trial there brings new revelation.
So right now, I come into myself and I fight the struggle of turning to this TV Series for comfort and return to God for comfort. I turn away from video games and internet for comfort and I return to HIS word! I turn my head away from the cursing and rudeness of the earth and lift my eyes to the Love and Grace of the Creator, God our Father.
I know that coming out of earthly things will be a struggle. It’s harder when you push against them alone. I know my husband does not fight this battle at my side but will continue to allow them into the house and our lives. For he is not where I am. I pray for perseverance over this. I pray for strength and courage to do the right thing. I pray for intercession on my life by the Lord our God for me to be able to walk away and not turn back. I pray for the easing of the pain, so that I may go forth and boldly do the work of the Lord.
Father, I love you and I love all that you have done for me in my life. I love that you have placed an amazing man in my life, and I pray that from my changes, that he sees what true Joy and Love look like. Let me represent you to Him.
God bless!
Cynthia
