Everyone always says they are looking forward to something, whatever that something is. Today I decided I am dreaming forward. I a, pushing my dreams forward until they are a reality.
With Josh’s 7th birthday quickly approaching, I realize how far we have come and much further we have to go. I see the amazing that has taken place, with the arrival of the new phase. You know, we bought our first home, we bought 2 new cars (crazy right?!?!) and all because God is that good and His blessings pour out on ALL of His children. Well, with that all said, we still haven’t seen our biggest heart cry and dream come into fruition.
You know what I mean right? That dream that you know it’s what God made you for and you know that it’s your calling. That dream that the enemy has come against so strong and yet you feel it tug at your heart, rub your skin and tingle your tongue when you say “it’s coming”. That one thing that you always say “God if this isn’t your will, take it from my heart!” And yet, your heart doesn’t just yearn for it, it HUNGERS for it. It intentionally is seeking out that one purpose you were created for, knowing full well that is why it’s taken up that residency in such a precious part of you. Not in your mind where it can be taken away by another thought, not on paper where it can thrown away, but in your heart where it can be kept sacred.
My Pastor always says “Keep you heart pure.” I think the impurities let into your heart can affect you reaching your purpose. But if you get rid of those, your purpose will develop. Right now, I know my purpose is to be a mom. I know God made me to be a mom and love children with the His heart and love poured out in abundance. I know I was created to heal the orphaned heart, the thought of adoption… that intentionally act, makes me want to cry. My arms hunger to hold our child, knowing that I made a selfish decision that altered my creative purpose of being a mother. At the same moment, it just made it more intentionally. That I can’t just “be” to be in my purpose, but now I have to make that intentional action toward it. Knowing it won’t happen until I come into agreement and put that into motion that will lead me to my purpose.
It’s hard at times. Knowing that it’s not now, but soon. Knowing that I have to wait on God’s time and God’s heart for everything to fall into place. Knowing that I can’t force His hand, but I can joyfully wait upon the Lord. Today I am intentionally dreaming forward, looking beyond my tomorrow, next week and next month, but dreaming ahead to my next year and speaking that which is not, as though it was.
