So much in my life is new. From the passing of my son to the view of life I have, all the way to my spiritual beliefs.
When Josh passed away on the 28th of Feb, 2011, my whole world changed. One would have thought their world ended, when really a new chapter opened for us. My outlook on life changed, but then so did my spiritual. I found God, through the death of my son.
While Josh was in the hospital I had 3 visions. The first was on the 24th of Feb, it was of Josh, standing in his hospital bed with out the cords attached, like he was saying “Look Mommy! Look what I can do!”. The second took place on the 25th, it was of Jeremy and I, we were walking into the hospital with an army of color behind us (like you were looking at a TV screen from an inch away and could see the pixels). The third was during a meditation in the hospital chapel on the morning of the 26th, it was of Josh. While my eyes were closed and I was clearing my mind he came to me and stood in my lap. Though I knew he was not there I could feel him, like if I opened my eyes I would expect to see him there, and though my arms did not move I felt my spiritual arms reach up and wrap around him and hug him close. Then as I felt him loving me, I saw an angel place it’s hands on the sides of his body and hand him up to Jesus. At the time I wanted to believe it meant he needed more time, but now I know that it meant he was saying good bye and that it was time for him to be in heaven.
Since then so much has been opened up to me, but that is a message for another post.
