I have found myself spending more time in prayer then I used to. I find myself turning to the bible for comfort and seeking Him through scripture. I have learned to pray before I read the scriptures, so that I will have guidance and understanding as I am seeking His word. I take comfort in my Sunday Church attendance and in the Friday Night Ministry. I love my family in Christ and I have learned I can turn to those Brothers and Sisters for comfort, guidance and strength.
After the loss of my son, I thought I would be lost. I remember walking the halls of the hospital just so I didn’t have to think about anything, but one foot in front of the other. Now I think about the Lord and my son, frequently. I have found comfort in knowing he is safe with the Lord. I have also been able to realize, my son answered prayers… HE ANSWERED PRAYERS!!! We donated the his organs, his liver went to an 8 year old boy and his kidneys went to 2 different women. These 3 people were praying for a miracle and that came from the body of my son. My son gave people hope, and all I pray for is that they have found the Lord through their trials.
I was given the option to write to the recipients, but I don’t know if I can. It’s a struggle for me. I guess it’s more that I am just not at that point and don’t know if I ever will be. Right now my focus is on my walk with the Lord and what He wants of me. I know I need to be free to do His will when He wants me to. I can’t be tied down, and I am so thankful to God that he will provide for us so that I can be free to Him. Knowing that I am choosing to not go find a job, so that I can be open to His will, worried me at first. But after prayer and prompting by the Holy Spirit I learned, that this is what the Lord is asking of me and I WILL answer!!! I know he will provide for me and my family. That we will be taken care of and that He is watching over us.
All praise be to God! He who was, and is and is yet to come!!
